Most people won’t discover the real person I am trying to be
Please don’t tell me to change
I feel lost and betrayed by my own interpretation of life
Let me feel alive for the first time
I want to leave all these regrets behind, destroy the vulnerability I created all these years
Come on, I deserve some kind of freedom
I want to feel the beating of my heart until I die
Don’t let me fall into the same pattern I despise
Take away the pain of yesterday before I fail to do so
I need my dreams to become reality
Let me have this small piece of happiness
Thoughts won’t describe how I feel
Thoughts won’t matter when I scream
I am not alive
Make me jump over the edge
Make me turn on the lights
Make me feel what I have never felt before
Shoot me with adrenaline pumping in my veins
This is the beginning of the end
It’s time to start over
It’s time to take full responsibility
for my actions
for my life
for everything I want to achieve
Just for once, I put the blame on you after all the things I went through
Just for once, Iam going to hold you responsible for my pain
Just for once, Iam going to scream out all of my rage
Just for once, it is going to be you who made a mistake
Just for once, there will be no turning back
When hours pass like years
When seconds feel like minutes
When your whole reality is turned upside down
When you feel nothing, but everything at once
You are the one who brought me into this.
I am feeling lost and betrayed by my own thoughts.
You pushed me over the edge to get your own pleasure out of it.
Don’t try to hide it, because it’s all written on your face.
Leaving me feeling dirty, that’s what you did.