Selfish

Isn’t it strange how I became the personage I never thought I would ever be able to develop into.

A pavement of overcommitment for years to continue.

I was going through hell just so that I could fulfill your wish of silence.

Why would I ever choose such entrance?

Persistent, merciful, surrendering.

Is this really empowering?

I would like to be more selfish,

but I really don’t know who to punish.

Stronger than ever, I get faced with the pain of yesterday

How do I teach my child something I still haven’t figured out for myself

Human greed helped to intensify the moments

Interest gets lost in-between

Losing care, Losing love.

I would like to be more selfish,

but it seems to become more of a fetish.

Interest gets lost in-between

Losing care, Losing love.

I want to run away

Combined with all of these needy, sweet little nothings

Illusions in my head, hope in my heart

Where is the door to leave this place?

I would like to be more selfish,

but I don’t know how to vanish.